Day 9

In “drag,” written by Lusia Straus , I found the lines “God, I’m scared  I can’t stop/ it’s an effect” particularly intriguing. The first thought that came to my mind when I read the word “God,” was one of irony. Earlier in the poem, the speaker mentioned the day her Mother saw her smoke a cigarette, was the day she said she did not even believe in God. Her use of the word “God,” is  telling to her personality. She does not fully think through everything she is saying. If she were true to her beliefs that there is no god, then she probably would have taken the extra effort to avoid using the name.  Her use of an inappropriate, according o her own beliefs, is similar to her thinking the effect of smoking outweighs the health problems. She must not be completely aware of her surroundings, and information available to her to realize that smoking is hazardous and not worth any effect it may give off. She seems to not be too concerned in being aware of ideas and impressions people will probably get from her. She must be scared of lung cancer, or some other disease, but since she seems a little oblivious, looking cool or edgy is much more important. I do not know what sort of particular effect she is looking to send, and that makes the reader question what is more important than her very own well-being. She sends a direct address towards a being she does not even believe exists; she needs to be more aware of what she is saying, ad if the effect is really worth the health risk.